I Promise I'm not dead!

Sorry I've not been here much guys
I've been so busy and have had a lot of things going on....
depression has still been a major problem for me and I'm still fighting thoughts of suicide.....I so hate admitting it....
the meds I'm on havent' really been helping...
I'm trying so hard to make it guys....really...
please keep praying for me
I've had some unfortunate close calls....
but I swear I'm trying

I do truly wanna be here more....I hope to draw more eventually
I have lots of pics I wanna draw, yet so little time or energy
but I'll be more active soon
dont lose hope on me
thank you all for yer support <3